Reality vs Lalaland

Lalaland is my dreamland, a place where i dream of my fairytale stories, a peaceful land where war and evil dont exist, no sadness, ppl dont suffer fr starvation, no violence, no greedy ppl..everyone just live happily forever...

How nice if lalaland does exist, no wonder my friends always agree that i think too much..i dream ALOT..haha..cause now i'm starting to realise, to accept and to admit that sometimes reality is cruel...and u can easily left behind if u aint REALISTIC. There is only one truth (pinjam yr quote, zi yang), no point making assumptions n we just have to face the fact in front of us in our daily lives.

During these 2 weeks of break, although it didnt turn out smoothly according to my plan (revision, study study study, hw etc etc), i have gained something so valuable that it will definitely change my perspective towards life.

So many things happened lately.....hard to list everything out...

just that now i'm shaping myself to be an independent and responsible girl...cause it's a stepping stone towards..anything that u want...to survive..at least...=) Since i dont have a kakak now, i have to wake up really early to do all the housework with my mother. And i realise that if i still enjoying and taking things for granted, i will be dead if there's no kakak in my house for even a day..lolz...

Do u know how much clothes that u need to wash everyday? My family is not big, just 6 ppl but i didnt know that the amount of clothes that are thrown into the washing machine everyday is like there's a kampung of Yap's family living in my house....

After hanging the clothes then i have to sweep the floor outside the garden and garage, believe it anot i spend an hour just to sweep the floor, really need to train myself to sweep faster...then my mum will mop the floor...basically now i'm spending the whole day doing housework, it's so tiring except i really enjoy preparing dishes for lunch and dinner!!!! haha...like cooking very much, especially now i really get to learn the SKILLs which is to estimate the amount of salt, sugar, pepper, soy sauce that u need to put in order to serve my family with sth edible. But too bad i dont have the time to bake cakes, actually i plan to learn white chocolate cake d..bought all the ingrediants adi but i just dun have the TIME...btw, anyone has the recipe for white chocolate cake? I found one but the measurement for the ingrediants is in ounces and cup..i'm searching for gram cause it will be much more easier..HELP HELP!!

Besides...my grandma fell down and hurt her legs, need to take care of her..pray that she will recover soon... family always comes first, promise myself to be a good girl and wont disappoint my parents...need to help them in their business every weekends...n trust me..i really feel that i'm so small...knowledge that i'm having now is so shallow...so tiny..there's so much room for improvements, so many things that i dont know...but it's really time to explore the reality that i'm living in now...

how much i wished that my life is like a fairytale, with a perfect boyfriend that will sayang me, protect me....and spend time with him doing all the romantic stuff that all couples do...cry out loud to release all my stress to him..rather than shedding tears alone in my bedroom....HAIZ~~~ but the problem is still there...cant expect a problem to be solved because of boyfren telling me 'it will be alright ~~~'...or does it really work? maybe, most of the time love is blind.

I just want to wake up and master my mind, life aint a bed of roses...it's challenging and i'm going to face it with all my frens! =) But the most important thing before all these hardcore stuff, WE MUST ALL STAY HAPPY!! BE OPTIMISTIC, WHEN THERE'S A WILL, THERE'S A WAY!!!

-best wishes-