I am leaving Malaysia on the 22 of February,
heading to Sydney taking Bachelor of Pharmacy.
Time is passing by,
so quickly that I'm afraid there's not enough time to say goodbye.
Trips, gatherings, farewell parties and etc,
the more I see you all,
the heavier my heart becomes.
During daytime,
we have fun together..
when the night arrives,
my heart sank of loneliness,
tears rolling down gently at first,
and start to pour everytime,
every moment,
when I'm missing all of you.
Homesickness is normal,
For me,
Pre-homesickness works well too.
It's not merely my home,
it's everything here..the land that I was born to,
friends that share the same mother tongue,
friends that I can lean on,
friends that knows me so well
I dont have to hide my flaws.
My family,
the best out of the best,
I cant ask for more...
Missing all of you
makes me really sick,
it's beyond words,
I choose not to continue,
as my eyes will be flooded
sooner or later.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Friday, January 8, 2010
beginning of everything
Hey, i'm back.
It's already 2010.
This year will be a better year, everything will be brand new.
=) let's hope that I will keep this blog alive!!
haha..a proper update is coming soon~
It's already 2010.
This year will be a better year, everything will be brand new.
=) let's hope that I will keep this blog alive!!
haha..a proper update is coming soon~
Friday, April 24, 2009
Tough
It's easy to advise people to stay strong, but u cant imagine how hard it is to be strong.
Tough times will eventually mould the vulnerable me to a stronger person? I hope so, because I have no other choice....
Perhaps I will feel better having someone besides me, but it seems that independent is the one that getting closer and closer to me.
And I hope that everything will be fine soon!!!!!!!!!!!
Tough times will eventually mould the vulnerable me to a stronger person? I hope so, because I have no other choice....
Perhaps I will feel better having someone besides me, but it seems that independent is the one that getting closer and closer to me.
And I hope that everything will be fine soon!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, November 7, 2008
lock and key
Whenever Happy faces a problem so tough that as though there is no solution to it,
When Happy has done something so wrong that he fear that even a single soul knows about it,
He hides, run away from reality and choose to live in a world that is so unreal,
He enjoys staying in that world that provides him with everything he wants,
and everything that he dislikes will just disappear in that world,
a place where his SECRET will be buried beneath the Earth.
He feels so happy and contented that eventually he totally forget about the real world.
He doesnt even want to think about it.
Why?
Because he is afraid.
He is scared that his secret will be revealed one day.
And he thought, 'My life is great now, i dont wanna change it.'
But he is just lying to himself, he cannot accept what befalls him and choose to hide,
One day, he will regret...
Life is all about changes and acceptance,
Let's hope that courage will bring those who are in dismay out fr the fake world,
Let's hope that the strong bonding will help Happy to realise that only true friends backstab you in the front.
And i hope,
it is not too late to say so....
Happiness is a lock in life,
we choose to open it,
sometimes we close it back,
it's all depends on us,
for we are the only key to it.
When Happy has done something so wrong that he fear that even a single soul knows about it,
He hides, run away from reality and choose to live in a world that is so unreal,
He enjoys staying in that world that provides him with everything he wants,
and everything that he dislikes will just disappear in that world,
a place where his SECRET will be buried beneath the Earth.
He feels so happy and contented that eventually he totally forget about the real world.
He doesnt even want to think about it.
Why?
Because he is afraid.
He is scared that his secret will be revealed one day.
And he thought, 'My life is great now, i dont wanna change it.'
But he is just lying to himself, he cannot accept what befalls him and choose to hide,
One day, he will regret...
Life is all about changes and acceptance,
Let's hope that courage will bring those who are in dismay out fr the fake world,
Let's hope that the strong bonding will help Happy to realise that only true friends backstab you in the front.
And i hope,
it is not too late to say so....
Happiness is a lock in life,
we choose to open it,
sometimes we close it back,
it's all depends on us,
for we are the only key to it.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
another tag..by nang nang
The person who tag you is?
Ying nang a.k.a nun nun
What relationship of you with him/her?-
Close friend i shall say
Your 5 impressions towards him/her?
1.super EMO
2.image to him is very important (how he looks, dress..etc)
3.STUBBORN
4.VAIN pot
5.very definite
The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you?
erm..hung up my phone just because i wanna help him...(still remember?)
The most memorable word that he/she has said to you ?
死彩仪！死彩仪！（i will then say 死贤能!)
If he/she becomes your lover , you will?
I will cry..ahaha
If he/she becomes your enemy , you will?
I will ask him whether wanna be back friends lo...
If he/she becomes your lover , he/she has to improve on?
dont be so emotional...but u quite good actually..lolz..and dun be so vain please
If he/she becomes your enemy , the reason is ...
wont want lah..=.=" sweat
The most desirable thing to do for him/her is?
er......find a girlfren for him..?
The overall impression to he/her is
vain, emo, but caring too =)
How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
Like to laugh, talk loudly, emo..
The character for you for yourself is?
Optimistic, friendly, independent
On contrary , the character you hate of yourself is?
soft-hearted, easily get cheated
The most ideal person you want to be is?
myself
For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.
Thank You for being there for me, no matter it rains or shines.
Ten people to tag :
this is the first time i tag ppl because it seems that i have to tag in order to finish this tag
so..
i tag
1) Pyin Nie (apparently her blog is dead..lolz..my bestie..take care!)
2) Cheng Chun (a sweet guy and very polite too!)
3) Chee Yuen (very straight forward and be what he is)
4) Tung Tung (in taiwan now, pursuing to be a superstar!)
5) Zhi Shan (well, always like to discuss some 'topics' with me, super vain too)
6) Huan Ting (cant forget the damn funny things that happened in kem tutti outside the toilet)
7) Wei Siong (super vain and perasan guy that i know in a party)
8) Kah Ming (know him through a 'wrong number' call, weird but yet..fated?)
9) Bin Yun (singer with a beautiful voice)
10) Farrah(my playful classmate)
Who is number 2 having relationship with?
erm..he's still single?
Is number 3 a male or female?
Male..lolz
If number 7 and number 10 be together would it be a good thing?
haha, i never thought of that combination before, who knows? =)
How about number 5 and number 8?
er..impossible
What is number 1 studying about?
A levels
When was the last time you had a chat with them?
All different time.
Is number 4 a single?
nope
Say something about number 2.
a gentleman, he's so polite!!! =)
yea, finally finished!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ying nang a.k.a nun nun
What relationship of you with him/her?-
Close friend i shall say
Your 5 impressions towards him/her?
1.super EMO
2.image to him is very important (how he looks, dress..etc)
3.STUBBORN
4.VAIN pot
5.very definite
The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you?
erm..hung up my phone just because i wanna help him...(still remember?)
The most memorable word that he/she has said to you ?
死彩仪！死彩仪！（i will then say 死贤能!)
If he/she becomes your lover , you will?
I will cry..ahaha
If he/she becomes your enemy , you will?
I will ask him whether wanna be back friends lo...
If he/she becomes your lover , he/she has to improve on?
dont be so emotional...but u quite good actually..lolz..and dun be so vain please
If he/she becomes your enemy , the reason is ...
wont want lah..=.=" sweat
The most desirable thing to do for him/her is?
er......find a girlfren for him..?
The overall impression to he/her is
vain, emo, but caring too =)
How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
Like to laugh, talk loudly, emo..
The character for you for yourself is?
Optimistic, friendly, independent
On contrary , the character you hate of yourself is?
soft-hearted, easily get cheated
The most ideal person you want to be is?
myself
For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.
Thank You for being there for me, no matter it rains or shines.
Ten people to tag :
this is the first time i tag ppl because it seems that i have to tag in order to finish this tag
so..
i tag
1) Pyin Nie (apparently her blog is dead..lolz..my bestie..take care!)
2) Cheng Chun (a sweet guy and very polite too!)
3) Chee Yuen (very straight forward and be what he is)
4) Tung Tung (in taiwan now, pursuing to be a superstar!)
5) Zhi Shan (well, always like to discuss some 'topics' with me, super vain too)
6) Huan Ting (cant forget the damn funny things that happened in kem tutti outside the toilet)
7) Wei Siong (super vain and perasan guy that i know in a party)
8) Kah Ming (know him through a 'wrong number' call, weird but yet..fated?)
9) Bin Yun (singer with a beautiful voice)
10) Farrah(my playful classmate)
Who is number 2 having relationship with?
erm..he's still single?
Is number 3 a male or female?
Male..lolz
If number 7 and number 10 be together would it be a good thing?
haha, i never thought of that combination before, who knows? =)
How about number 5 and number 8?
er..impossible
What is number 1 studying about?
A levels
When was the last time you had a chat with them?
All different time.
Is number 4 a single?
nope
Say something about number 2.
a gentleman, he's so polite!!! =)
yea, finally finished!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Tag by cheng chun
TAG by Cheng Chun!!!!
Rule: The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/ her perfect lover. Tag 8 other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog. If you are tagged the second time, there is no need to do this again. Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.
Gender of perfect lover : Guy
8 different points about perfect lover :
1. Responsible
2.Mature thinking, insightful
3.Know me very well (my habits, my fav food, songs..etc etc)
4.Romantic (not too much..but at least abit lah..make me feel like a princess =P)
5.Smart (doesnt have to be very good looking, but must know how to dress up..do his hair..NO ear piercing, no tatoo, no hair colouring..polite looking..but can be sun shine also..lolz..getting too perfect..)
6.Know how to cycle(cause i dunno..T.T)
7.Caring, wont shout at me, loyal, punctual..have a watch with him, always there to listen to me..can bear with my nagging....bear with my everything..lolz
8.Dont smoke! No shisha, no clubbing etc etc...not addicted to computer games..
Well, and my perfect lover will love me as much as I love him! =)
Rule: The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/ her perfect lover. Tag 8 other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog. If you are tagged the second time, there is no need to do this again. Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.
Gender of perfect lover : Guy
8 different points about perfect lover :
1. Responsible
2.Mature thinking, insightful
3.Know me very well (my habits, my fav food, songs..etc etc)
4.Romantic (not too much..but at least abit lah..make me feel like a princess =P)
5.Smart (doesnt have to be very good looking, but must know how to dress up..do his hair..NO ear piercing, no tatoo, no hair colouring..polite looking..but can be sun shine also..lolz..getting too perfect..)
6.Know how to cycle(cause i dunno..T.T)
7.Caring, wont shout at me, loyal, punctual..have a watch with him, always there to listen to me..can bear with my nagging....bear with my everything..lolz
8.Dont smoke! No shisha, no clubbing etc etc...not addicted to computer games..
Well, and my perfect lover will love me as much as I love him! =)
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Someday, we will change.
The long awaited holidays is here! Or it's study break for our lecturers..sien =.=" Most of my classmates went back to their home sweet home and since i'm local, i spend most of the days hanging out with high school friends and get to know new friends. My brother had a high sch gathering last saturday in my house so my mum urged me to grab this opportunity to know some of his friends. ( maybe u can find a boyfriend leh ~~ she said) I think my mum is afraid that i cant get a boyfriend and she's getting so desperate..but it's not that easy to find someone that suits you, so..just let fate decides when i will fall in love again.
Someone says the fastest time that passes by is the one that u enjoy the most. But it doesnt apply on me, maybe just half of it. 2008, I really cant believe that it's already September. All the while i have been too busy to sit down and think back of everything that i have done in this year. Yesterday, i read my diary and realised a lot of things had happened. They say time heals everything. And i thought this year is healing me. The statement is flawed. Time doesnt heal everything in me. Time has changed me.
And i hope i'm a better person now. =)
Someone says the fastest time that passes by is the one that u enjoy the most. But it doesnt apply on me, maybe just half of it. 2008, I really cant believe that it's already September. All the while i have been too busy to sit down and think back of everything that i have done in this year. Yesterday, i read my diary and realised a lot of things had happened. They say time heals everything. And i thought this year is healing me. The statement is flawed. Time doesnt heal everything in me. Time has changed me.
And i hope i'm a better person now. =)
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