lock and key

Whenever Happy faces a problem so tough that as though there is no solution to it,
When Happy has done something so wrong that he fear that even a single soul knows about it,
He hides, run away from reality and choose to live in a world that is so unreal,
He enjoys staying in that world that provides him with everything he wants,
and everything that he dislikes will just disappear in that world,
a place where his SECRET will be buried beneath the Earth.
He feels so happy and contented that eventually he totally forget about the real world.
He doesnt even want to think about it.
Why?
Because he is afraid.
He is scared that his secret will be revealed one day.
And he thought, 'My life is great now, i dont wanna change it.'
But he is just lying to himself, he cannot accept what befalls him and choose to hide,
One day, he will regret...
Life is all about changes and acceptance,
Let's hope that courage will bring those who are in dismay out fr the fake world,
Let's hope that the strong bonding will help Happy to realise that only true friends backstab you in the front.
And i hope,
it is not too late to say so....

Happiness is a lock in life,
we choose to open it,
sometimes we close it back,
it's all depends on us,
for we are the only key to it.

another tag..by nang nang

The person who tag you is?
Ying nang a.k.a nun nun

What relationship of you with him/her?-
Close friend i shall say

Your 5 impressions towards him/her?
1.super EMO
2.image to him is very important (how he looks, dress..etc)
3.STUBBORN
4.VAIN pot
5.very definite

The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you?
erm..hung up my phone just because i wanna help him...(still remember?)

The most memorable word that he/she has said to you ?
死彩仪！死彩仪！（i will then say 死贤能!)

If he/she becomes your lover , you will?
I will cry..ahaha

If he/she becomes your enemy , you will?
I will ask him whether wanna be back friends lo...

If he/she becomes your lover , he/she has to improve on?
dont be so emotional...but u quite good actually..lolz..and dun be so vain please

If he/she becomes your enemy , the reason is ...
wont want lah..=.=" sweat

The most desirable thing to do for him/her is?
er......find a girlfren for him..?

The overall impression to he/her is
vain, emo, but caring too =)

How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
Like to laugh, talk loudly, emo..

The character for you for yourself is?
Optimistic, friendly, independent

On contrary , the character you hate of yourself is?
soft-hearted, easily get cheated

The most ideal person you want to be is?
myself

For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.
Thank You for being there for me, no matter it rains or shines.

Ten people to tag :
this is the first time i tag ppl because it seems that i have to tag in order to finish this tag
so..
i tag

1) Pyin Nie (apparently her blog is dead..lolz..my bestie..take care!)
2) Cheng Chun (a sweet guy and very polite too!)
3) Chee Yuen (very straight forward and be what he is)
4) Tung Tung (in taiwan now, pursuing to be a superstar!)
5) Zhi Shan (well, always like to discuss some 'topics' with me, super vain too)
6) Huan Ting (cant forget the damn funny things that happened in kem tutti outside the toilet)
7) Wei Siong (super vain and perasan guy that i know in a party)
8) Kah Ming (know him through a 'wrong number' call, weird but yet..fated?)
9) Bin Yun (singer with a beautiful voice)
10) Farrah(my playful classmate)

Who is number 2 having relationship with?
erm..he's still single?

Is number 3 a male or female?
Male..lolz

If number 7 and number 10 be together would it be a good thing?
haha, i never thought of that combination before, who knows? =)

How about number 5 and number 8?
er..impossible

What is number 1 studying about?
A levels

When was the last time you had a chat with them?
All different time.

Is number 4 a single?
nope

Say something about number 2.
a gentleman, he's so polite!!! =)

yea, finally finished!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tag by cheng chun

TAG by Cheng Chun!!!!

Rule: The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/ her perfect lover. Tag 8 other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog. If you are tagged the second time, there is no need to do this again. Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

Gender of perfect lover : Guy

8 different points about perfect lover :

1. Responsible

2.Mature thinking, insightful

3.Know me very well (my habits, my fav food, songs..etc etc)

4.Romantic (not too much..but at least abit lah..make me feel like a princess =P)

5.Smart (doesnt have to be very good looking, but must know how to dress up..do his hair..NO ear piercing, no tatoo, no hair colouring..polite looking..but can be sun shine also..lolz..getting too perfect..)

6.Know how to cycle(cause i dunno..T.T)

7.Caring, wont shout at me, loyal, punctual..have a watch with him, always there to listen to me..can bear with my nagging....bear with my everything..lolz

8.Dont smoke! No shisha, no clubbing etc etc...not addicted to computer games..

Well, and my perfect lover will love me as much as I love him! =)

Someday, we will change.

The long awaited holidays is here! Or it's study break for our lecturers..sien =.=" Most of my classmates went back to their home sweet home and since i'm local, i spend most of the days hanging out with high school friends and get to know new friends. My brother had a high sch gathering last saturday in my house so my mum urged me to grab this opportunity to know some of his friends. ( maybe u can find a boyfriend leh ~~ she said) I think my mum is afraid that i cant get a boyfriend and she's getting so desperate..but it's not that easy to find someone that suits you, so..just let fate decides when i will fall in love again.

Someone says the fastest time that passes by is the one that u enjoy the most. But it doesnt apply on me, maybe just half of it. 2008, I really cant believe that it's already September. All the while i have been too busy to sit down and think back of everything that i have done in this year. Yesterday, i read my diary and realised a lot of things had happened. They say time heals everything. And i thought this year is healing me. The statement is flawed. Time doesnt heal everything in me. Time has changed me.

And i hope i'm a better person now. =)

I miss my long hair ~~~

* my current hairstyle ~ short =) kinda like it (me and nana in genting!)

jie jie and I with shoulder length hair ~ ( in My place)

with fringe...i dont like it =/

during prom night last year..curly hair

i think this is the longest of all...suddenly i miss it so much...

sorry for my late update..but yea...i'm having my exam now so i dont think i will write another post within these few weeks...

anyway, i just checked out some of my photos and realised that my hair was really long last year..and i cut it until so short! Now i'm having a dilemma of whether to have long hair or just cut it short again..any comments? =)

take care

upset

I'm exhausted!!!!!! sigh ~~~ luckily my classmates which are totally hyperactive with our own ECA and their 'larap'ness keep me alive...sigh, just that what had happened this week was really really disappointing...just too much that i need time to digest it...sigh....sigh.....haiz......=(

'Some' Men are hard to please

The problems with GUYS:
If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him;
If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;
If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;
If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.
If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;
If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.
If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;
If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)
If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him;
If u do!! he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME;
If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him;
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMAN.
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;
If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;
If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!!
SO HARD TO PLEASE!!!!!If u tell this to guys, they will swear that it's not true.......
but if u don't they say u are selfish.....

Anyway, guys will eventually come out with something abt girls and start complaining how much they actually need to bear with us..but i'm sure if girls have found their Mr.Right, these wouldnt be a problem anymore, perharps that's the power of love? =)

So, i have finished my first sem exam, fully enjoyed my class genting trip and meet up with my very best friend-PYIN NIE!!!! I'm so happy that she's back(for 3 months), my life was so miserable when she left me during december..when everything seems to leave me alone..but she's back! Happy happy!! We went to 1u just a day after she landed and then visited yin nang's college today and he fetched us to sunway pyramid..miss those days when we used to lepak around Mv after school..hehe..will upload pictures soon!

Genting trip was a blast..and funny..haha..i love my class, pm14!!!! I'm tired ler..lazy to elaborate about what happen in the trip..let the pic do the talking?

Promise

I realise that we tend to appreciate things that we have lost and no longer can get them back again, regret over things that cannot be undone, cry over spilt milk or search for reasons to blame someone else.
When an opportunity comes, grab it well and hold it tight.
Dont let chances to slip away from hand. Appreciate every moment.
Although I might not be the best, I will try me best.
I learn to accept the fact that things happen and wont change, realise that sometimes there's no turning back because life is keep on moving forward.
Keep moving on,
Let go the past,
Holding on?
Scars and broken heart?
I dont want them at all.
So,
be greatful
life is beautiful! =)

What you got if you ain't got love
The kind that you just wanna give away
It's okay to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith

Cause sometimes that mountain you have been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small

It's so easy to get lost inside
a problem that seems so big at the time
it's like a river thats so wide
it swallows you whole
While you sit around thinking about what you can't change
and worrying about all the wrong things
time's flying by
moving so fast
you better make it count
'cause you can't get it back

Big boy - My 1 yr old HAPPY

I know i know..he's photogenic..and he likes the camera just like his owner does...=)

My Happy has turned into an adult since somebody says 1 yr old can be considered as big adi...but he still behaves like a kid, NAUGHTIEST dog ever in this world..he bites our shoes, tears off my pyjamas, my t-shirt, my socks etc etc...sleep on my bed when i'm not around n pee in my room when i'm there..etc etc..he's out of control except cheating him with FOOD and soft toys...

And now he's 1 yr old..besides growing bigger, he doesnt change much...ahh...and he has a girlfriend and he's absolutely in love with her, there's a story behind them though..but their relationship is getting closer and closer with the help of my DAD..my daddy actually tied Happy outside our house and both of them got the chance to date for a few hours...haiz..just hope they will play safe lar~~~

I cant believe that i'm actually JEALOUS of my dog! Or perharps feel happy for Happy when i saw him jogging with his girlfriend that day, and they adi coupling for around 4 months....gee...i guess not much dog has such freedom these days...

I'm so get used to being alone, and i cant imagine life with a boyfriend since i start to shop alone since the beginning of the year..luckily i haven tried watching movie alone in the cinema...just want to stick with my friends and hang out with them...I'm not brave enough to accept a relationship at the moment, not ready yet..i feel that coupling is like investing, u wont know what will happen...it's just very unstable..and for me..my confience in love is = 0.00%

Dont think too much, just be happy. Life goes on! ~~

* Look at me - Handsome Happy
* Wanna fight izit? =P

*still baby..he loves me (still dun have girlfren mah)
* he just want to sleep there
*now he cant squeeze into the shoerack..but he still wanna sleep there..

Dont miss it!!!!

This song is specially dedicated to my dearest fren that got so frustrated because he missed out 2 chances!!!!!!!!!!! I really hope u can make it!!!! Cant wait to hear the good news yea..=)
This song is so nice, sing out loud!!!

恋人未满

为什么只和你能聊一整夜
为什么才道别就又想见面
在朋友里面就数你最特别
总让我觉得很亲很贴
为什么你在意谁陪我逛街
为什么你担心谁对我放电
你说你对我，比别人多一些
却又不说是多哪一些
友达以上恋人未满
甜蜜心烦，愉悦混乱
我们以后会变怎样
我迫不及待想知道答案
再靠近一点就让你牵手
再勇敢一点我就跟你走
你还等什么时间已经不多
再下去只好只作朋友
再向前一点点我就会点头
再冲动一点点我就不闪躲
不过三个字别犹豫这么久
只要你说出口你就能拥有我
为什么你寂寞只想要我陪
为什么我难过只肯让你安慰
我们心里面明明都有感觉
为什么不敢面对
我不相信
都动了感情却到不了爱情
那么贴心却进不了心底
你能不能快一点决定
对我说我爱你！

A visit to Compassion Home

One day trip to Compassion Home with pre medical society ppl...totally love the kids! =) They are so cute and adorable, hope that they will have a bright future!

touched

Just finished watching a chinese drama and i cried for 30 minutes.....the main character died in the end...so touching...T.T

原来有些人不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。。这样就已经足够了。。戏中的男主角牺牲自己，死前对他最爱的人所说的那番话。。感动到爆。。哭到我半死。。所以到这里blog， 因为我真的感动到。。感动到难以形容！！！！

haha..that's for all..

happy labour day =)

Blank

sometimes, when everything doesnt seem right, when something it's about to go wrong...when u are confused...when u are totally stucked and just feel that the world is ending....you try very hard to scream but nobody can hear you...when yr brain is getting so empty that u cant think at all.....when u are all alone....just..........

take a deep breath....close yr eyes....

and smile...

open up yr eyes....

everything will be fine...dont worry....

* best wishes*

Marching competition 2008 - My baby juniors!!!

Today went back to chs to support all my babies juniors in their marching competition! I'm soooo PROUD of u all n i really hope that RC spirit will stay with u guys forever n ever!!! =) The formation was absolutely fabulous n special..although u guys got 1st runner up, inside my heart all of u are the champions of the day!!!!!!!! Gambateh!!! Jia you jia you!!!

My babies in their barisan! =)

BBSM rocks!! One for all, all for one!!! Love all of u!!!!!

The Ex-seniors...lolz...

p/s: just changed a new blog template and i totolly love this one! =) i always like staring at the stars like the lil girl in the template does, hoping that all the wishes upon the stars will come true! Btw, my english name a.k.a Aster means stars in Greek words..and it's a name of a flower in english, n it carries so many meanings that i wont regret choosing it..hehe..

In memory of RC Headquarter - 20.4.2008

I have never been there before, our Red Crescent Headquaters in Klang, but the moment I read the paper abt the burnt down of this building, my heart sored. Why must the evil spirit of fire destroy a place where so many RC members spend time together...I'm so sad...=(

Tuan Shreenath had just posted a message to all RC members, I extracted a part of it and write it down here...I'm sure that he's sad too...but RC spirit will stay on and burn brightly within our hearts!

"More than anyone else in this world,more than any other team in this world, we have spent countless valuable hours in HQ. We have done every possible human activity (cry,laugh, scold, fight, console, praise,euphoria, spirited, multiple meetings and many first times) in this HQ. Our blood, sweat and tears in within the four burnt walls of this HQ. It has been sent up !!!

God bless our HQ and everyone associated with it! Stay strong! We represent the strength and solidarity of HQ."

" You can burn the building, but you can never burn the society, you cannot burn youth power, you cannot burn what we stand for! "

TO : CHOCOLATE AND CAKES LOVERS!!!

Oh my gosh, after searching for nearly 2 weeks, i finally came across this website where u can find ALL TYPES OF CHOCOLATE CAKES RECIPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M SO EXCITED NOW AND I CANT WAIT TO SHARE IT TO OTHER PPL WHO LOVE BAKING TOO!!!!! THE INSTRUCTIONS ARE CRYSTAL CLEAR AND U JUST WONT REGRET TRYING THE RECIPE!!!!!

there u go :

http://www.inspired-by-chocolate-and-cakes.com

cant wait to try them out...=)

seriously..sometimes i doubt that ppl will actually visit this blog..but well..haha..just cant hide my excitement...i wanna bake cakes!

have a sweet day ppl!

Reality vs Lalaland

Lalaland is my dreamland, a place where i dream of my fairytale stories, a peaceful land where war and evil dont exist, no sadness, ppl dont suffer fr starvation, no violence, no greedy ppl..everyone just live happily forever...

How nice if lalaland does exist, no wonder my friends always agree that i think too much..i dream ALOT..haha..cause now i'm starting to realise, to accept and to admit that sometimes reality is cruel...and u can easily left behind if u aint REALISTIC. There is only one truth (pinjam yr quote, zi yang), no point making assumptions n we just have to face the fact in front of us in our daily lives.

During these 2 weeks of break, although it didnt turn out smoothly according to my plan (revision, study study study, hw etc etc), i have gained something so valuable that it will definitely change my perspective towards life.

So many things happened lately.....hard to list everything out...

just that now i'm shaping myself to be an independent and responsible girl...cause it's a stepping stone towards..anything that u want...to survive..at least...=) Since i dont have a kakak now, i have to wake up really early to do all the housework with my mother. And i realise that if i still enjoying and taking things for granted, i will be dead if there's no kakak in my house for even a day..lolz...

Do u know how much clothes that u need to wash everyday? My family is not big, just 6 ppl but i didnt know that the amount of clothes that are thrown into the washing machine everyday is like there's a kampung of Yap's family living in my house....

After hanging the clothes then i have to sweep the floor outside the garden and garage, believe it anot i spend an hour just to sweep the floor, really need to train myself to sweep faster...then my mum will mop the floor...basically now i'm spending the whole day doing housework, it's so tiring except i really enjoy preparing dishes for lunch and dinner!!!! haha...like cooking very much, especially now i really get to learn the SKILLs which is to estimate the amount of salt, sugar, pepper, soy sauce that u need to put in order to serve my family with sth edible. But too bad i dont have the time to bake cakes, actually i plan to learn white chocolate cake d..bought all the ingrediants adi but i just dun have the TIME...btw, anyone has the recipe for white chocolate cake? I found one but the measurement for the ingrediants is in ounces and cup..i'm searching for gram cause it will be much more easier..HELP HELP!!

Besides...my grandma fell down and hurt her legs, need to take care of her..pray that she will recover soon... family always comes first, promise myself to be a good girl and wont disappoint my parents...need to help them in their business every weekends...n trust me..i really feel that i'm so small...knowledge that i'm having now is so shallow...so tiny..there's so much room for improvements, so many things that i dont know...but it's really time to explore the reality that i'm living in now...

how much i wished that my life is like a fairytale, with a perfect boyfriend that will sayang me, protect me....and spend time with him doing all the romantic stuff that all couples do...cry out loud to release all my stress to him..rather than shedding tears alone in my bedroom....HAIZ~~~ but the problem is still there...cant expect a problem to be solved because of boyfren telling me 'it will be alright ~~~'...or does it really work? maybe, most of the time love is blind.

I just want to wake up and master my mind, life aint a bed of roses...it's challenging and i'm going to face it with all my frens! =) But the most important thing before all these hardcore stuff, WE MUST ALL STAY HAPPY!! BE OPTIMISTIC, WHEN THERE'S A WILL, THERE'S A WAY!!!

-best wishes-

My name ~ the one and only one

What Yap Chai Yee means

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

you might not be the best, but u can always try your best!

1.Got up early to help out in my dad and his partners' new shop.

2.Stood at the registration counter, asking guests for their signatures and name cards.

3.Smiled brightly at them.

4.A few bossy ppl came, continued smiling brightly at them.

5.Alot of bossy ppl came, forced to smile happily at them.

6.Smiled until my cheek muscles cramped, but no choice..guests were coming in, SMILED!

lesson learnt : always keep a smiling face, ppl will soon notice u..and when ppl 'lan si' at u..just smile back and let them be shameful..afterall, customers come first! =P I was surprised when one guy came and asked me why i'm so 好笑容 in cantonese...hehe...of course la..want u to buy our products mah...~~~

Anyway, it's great when u are exposed to brand new experiences...learn alot...i'm really nothing compared to those successful ppl that i met yesterday......still lots more to gain!! gambateh!

* with all the directors and staff, group picture!

* my love ones =)

Nie Nie ~~~~

Hope u wont give me that face later yeah!!!!!!!! ~~~~~~~ Miss you alot argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha...i really hope that i can skype with u..lolz..and held a online conference d..but hehe...going out later...anyway, happy easter holidays!!!! have fun in london and be careful ya!!!!

*Heartzz*

-yee-

family love~~~

-this is hilarious..so funny..note that we laughed until so stupid all because of ah wong!!!! He asked us to point our middle finger and ended up with 'thumbs up'!! >.<

=) it had been AWHILE since i laughed so HARD, smiled until my cheekbone muscles cramped, talked LOUDLY in a crowd like others were not existed, SANG 'beautifully' with my retarted yet BEST friends...and sat TOGETHER forming a bond that will last FOREVER.

I want 'them' to be not only my past, present but FUTURE.

Puzzles of my life that paint my world with colours...thanks!!!! PBSM rocks ~~~~~ Let the pics do the talking!!!!

ONCE A PBSM MEMBER, FOREVER A PBSM MEMBER!!

to ALL MY FRIENDS

Little faith brightens a rainy day
Life is difficult; you can't go away
Don't hide yourselve in the corner
You have my place to stay

Sorrow is gonna say goodbye
Opens up you'll see the happy sunshine
Keep going on with your dream
Chasing tomorrow's sunrise
The spirit can never die

Sun will shine, my friend
Won't let you cry, my dear
Seeing you shed a tear
Make my world disappear
You'll never be alone in darkness

See my smile, my friend
We are with you, holding hands
You have got to believe, you are my destiny
We're meant to be your friends
That's what a friend should be!!

Tagged!

Tagged by ying yang aka my son =)

Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total 20 questions, then tag to 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1.) What is your dream when you were in your childhood?
Uhm..hope that santa clause will reply my letter n send me my teddy during christmas.

2.) Rainy days or sunny days?
Definitely sunny days! Bright and hot, happy summer days!

3.) Which do you like the most? Black or White?
White, it's innocent...i hate black..it seems so evil..anyway, i prefer rainbow colours!

4.) Who would you marry?
A guy that i'm comfortable with...

5.) Where is the place you would like to go most? Why?
Beach, love the breeze that clears off my mind...

6.) What are you afraid of ?
Left alone, i cant live without friends.

7.) When you encounter a sad moment, what would you do?
Cry, sleep, eat chocolates and ice cream, listen to emo songs.

8.) What is the one thing you can never get tired of?
Chatting on the phone with my best friends.

9.) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? Or just keep the secret in the heart, observing by yourself?
Nope, i wouldnt..

10.) Do you think time can heal everything?
No, sad memories might fade away but scar remains.

11.) What are the requirements that you wish for your other half?
Suits me and doesnt smoke.

12.) Which type of person do you hate most?
Someone that keeps blank promise, backstabbers and liers.

13.) Favourite part of a song?
Hmm...will enjoy throughout the whole song. =)

14.) Would you rather be someone else at this moment?
Nope, i like being myself.

15.)Do you ever admit it when you're emo?
Yes.

16.) What will you do if the world ends tomorrow?
Stay with my family and friends and tell them how much i appreciate and love them!

17.) Who's your favourite cartoon character?
Mickey and minnie. (and other disney characters)

18.) TO which extent would you do for the special ones.
Infinity, i can do anything.

19.) Describe your dream house.
Facing a beach, it's a small wooden house situated away from the city...

20) Does music make you lose control?
Yea, emo ones do.

彩虹

哪裡有彩虹告訴我
能不能把我的願望還給我
為什麼天這麼安靜
所有的雲都跑到我這裡

##有沒有口罩一個給我
釋懷說了太多就成真不了
也許時間是一種解藥
也是我現在正服下的毒藥
看不見你的笑 我怎麼睡得著
你的聲音這麼近我卻抱不到
沒有地球太陽還是會繞
沒有理由我也能自己走 ##

**你要離開 我知道很簡單
你說依賴 是我們的阻礙
就算放開 但能不能別沒收我的愛
當作我最後才明白

**Repeat ## **

RAP
看不見你的笑要我怎麼睡得著
你的聲音這麼近我卻抱不到
沒有地球太陽開始會繞…會繞
沒有理由我也能自己走掉
是我說了太多就成真不了
也許時間是一種解藥…解藥
也是我現在正服下的毒藥

Repeat**

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我希望总有一天每个人都能找到自己的一片彩虹。。
对我而言，‘放弃’从来都不曾在我的词典里出现过。。因为我认为只要永不言弃， 世上都不会有解不开的谜底，梦想，是会成真的。。可惜，经历了一些挫折后。。我开始学习如何去放弃。。原来放弃的过锃中，是黑暗。。是痛苦。。是心灵上的折磨。。是地狱。。唉。。只能默默的叹息永远都在感情路线深陷谷底的我吧!
成长的道路上，你们是处于那个地带呢？黑色？白色？或是灰色？以往，我对事情的谅解只有黑白之分。。原来，朦胧不清的灰色。。草率地把事情告一段落也是解决方法之一。。当然，我最向往的还是彩虹般的生活。。多姿多彩。。永远都没有黑白灰地带。。
开开心心的过日子，生活才有意义嘛！！！
毕竟人生不可能会十全十美的，是要历经磨练及考验。。就好像丑陋的小毛虫，它也许一生下来就注定给人踩扁， 死在杀虫剂的毒手下。。但是，小毛虫的命运是掌握在它自己的手中。。只有坚挺的毅力毛毛虫才会变成受人赞扬的美丽蝴蝶！！
现在的我。。就是一条毛毛虫。。未来。。就得加油咯！！

-彩仪-

Extra Chocolate Chips Cake! ~~ My emo cake

*my second try..spot those choc chips!!!!

* My first try with microwave oven.

The recipe for this emo cake is given by my senior, chee hoe..modified by me..so yea, feel free to try it out if u are a chocolate lover!!!

Ingredients

A: 190g butter

150-200g caster sugar ( if u put alot of choc chips, u can reduce the amount of sugar)

B: 3 eggs

1 1/2 vanilla essence ( it's ok if u dun add in)

C: 220g self raising powder

50g chocolate/cocoa powder ( i put until 70/80 cause chocolate it's too tempting!)

1 teasp raising powder

1/2 tsp soda powder/baking powder

1/4 tsp salt

250ml water

one pack of chocolate chips (depends on yr liking)

Method!

1. Beat ingredients A for about 20 minutes in fast speed. When u beat until the mixture turn white yellowish and feel that the sugar has smoothen..change to medium speed

2.Add in ingredients B which is the eggs.Rmb, beat in eggs one at a time.(in order to mix it well)

3. Then, mix in ingredients C. *slow speed

4.Pour in 250 ml water and beat slowy into a homogeneous mixture.

5. Put in a lot of chocolate chips (usually i put in one small pack). U can either mix it into the mixture or just springkle them on top.

6. Lastly, place the mixture into a 8inches baking pan (make sure it's lined adi). Bake in preheated oven at 180'c for about 40-45 minutes. (always check yr cake to prevent overcooked or worst, half-cooked)

Ta dah! very easy and fun way to make an emo cake!

I think it's sweet to bake for someone u like...if only i had the chance...anyway, i really enjoy baking o and i'm glad that my family always finish up my dishes =)! Anyone know where got cheap and useful baking class? I went to 'Homechef' near my place and it was very expensive...hope to meet up with some 'baking' lover!!!

Watched 10000 BC yesterday, it was damn nice, seriously, it's worth yr time...we clapped and applaused throughout the show..just left a standing ovation from us.. =P That's all for today...haven been super emo these few days, how i wished pyin nie u r here beside me...it's so hard to find a friend that u can just pour out everything...but i'm sure i can overcome it..no worries...keep moving on!!! =)

Have a nice day!! *smiles*

Missing all of you......

We have been through hell lots of emo disputes, failure, success together...overcome our critical life in form 4 and 5...long story though..u know i know..everlasting bond of strength!! I miss highschol!!!
* loong, yee, nie and khar mun. I'm so proud of us..our story is beyond words though..
Are u thinking of me too? =)
*nie nie, yee yee and nun nun = the emo gang.

Valentine's day

Wishing all lovely couples a very sweet and romantic valentine's day!
for me, it's a single awareness day..thanks for siew fong that keeps on reminding me since the beginning of the week...anyway, i did a little test on my love life since i'm wondering when valentine's day will be a valentine's day for me..okay, and it turns out that my love life is like a fairytale..=.="" pyin nie will definitely agree on that though, but fairytale is nothing more than fantasy...no point indulge in it and wake up to realise that it's only a dream...BUT sometimes i really hope that there's 'happily ever after' lo...living in fantasy isnt a bad thing afterall! wait till somebody slap me awake bah! ( i have a feeling that the person will be tung tung) Well, one thing for sure, i believe that everyday is valentines when u have found yr true love! =) so, good luck in searching yr valentine!!



scream of the day: i need holidays!!! it's never enough for me!!!


here goes my result!!

Your Love Life is Like The Princess Bride

"Since the invention of the kiss, there have only been five kisses that were rated the most passionate, the most pure. This one left them all behind." For you, love is like a fairy tale - albeit a fairly twisted one.You believe romance is all about loyalty, fate, and a good big of goofy fun. Your love style: Idealistic yet quirky Your Hollywood Ending Will Be: Perfectly romantic

What Movie Is Your Love Life Like?

A picture paints a thousand words.

cambridge a levels @ taylors

so..january has just slipped away and here comes FEBRUARY..gosh, one month...can u recall what u have done in this 31 days??? Time really flies, wasted one month basically doing nothing..or something useless..day dreaming..sleeping..watching tv..T.T this is so not chaiyee!! I have got to PLAN my timetable and FOLLOW it in order to make FULL use of my 24 hours...not going to waste even a single second anymore...life keeps going on and college is getting more hectic and challenging...=)

here's a summary of my first month in taylors

1. Mixing around with new friends and classmates.

It's kinda fun knowing new faces, shaking hands and repeating the same phrase 'hey, i'm aster! Nice to meet you!' i do hope 50% of them can remember my name, or at least my face..cause it's really hard for me to store 20++ names in a few minutes...but by now i can easily list out all my 24 classmates' names! =)

2. Coping with new subjects and lecturers

I have decided to put my sciences aside and pursue in art subjects - economics, accounting, maths and law. I find them interesting and i'm sure that with more reading and self-studying i can understand the subjects better, too bad there's no more spoon feeding in college. >.<>> Ms Brooke ROX!!! She makes thinking skills so lively that i really really miss her NOW! We have total freedom in her classes, mobiles, food, even fighting and vulgar words are allowed..as long as we can get the answers right in her exercises...cutest and funniest teacher i have ever met!!

3. Searching for food besides AC (Asia cafe)

No more canteen aunties and uncles,cafeteria in taylors is uhm...highly not recommended. At first my friends and i went to Ac for lunch almost EVERYDAY and we get bored with the food there...the price is also killing us..so we started to explore the cafes in subang..hehe..the best that we have tried is a stall selling 'pork mee' behind taylors business school..near adp building...worth trying it!! it's juicy and delicious...cant wait to try out more good food here!!!

have also participated in some activities organized by taylors, F.U.N night which afterall not that fun..quite disappointed though...but the other party which was only for CAL students was enjoyable =) had a good laugh and crazy time with my group members ( all october babies), one thing that i regret so much is that i forgot to bring my mobile phone to that party! T.T i hardly meet my group members in college, maybe cal is way too big in taylors....sigh..only get to keep in touch with wei siong and wei guang...better than none though...

Anyway, chinese new year is coming!!! Let's hope for the best in 2008!!!! Smile, Laugh, Talk, Play, Have fun and enjoy life!!

-Peace begins with a smile- mother teresa

Here's some pictures with my friends in taylors!!!!!!!

- PB3 and PL3 after LAN test >.< - happy chinese new year!! my classmates!!!

group members in CAL party! spot the giant behind me...

my giant friend - Ilei. gosh..i'm short T.T

cutest liltle boy in my class - ying jie ( ll boy)

So close yet so far....

yea, here goes my second post. College life has started for a month, well..incase some of my high school friends dont know..i'm currently studying in taylors taking cambridge a levels programme, feel free to find me there!!! although my timetable is really pack(average is fr 8-4 everyday), i'm enjoying my lessons...so far so good. =) oh, i drop all my science subjects and take up business..econs, acc, mths and law!! i will miss biology though but since i didnt plan to further into sciences so might as well leave them now...anyway, i have great lecturers in pb3, great friends..well..100% gentlemen which are all so polite that i think i'm rude in a way...overall girls are ruling the class at the moment, i'm still waiting those guys to show their true colours since i suppose everyone will present their best side in the beginning of semester? i will update more about my class soon..

now back to my topic of the day..so close yet so far, i have been using this phrase since the starting of year2008..it's sounds so simple but u just wouldnt understand it unless u experience it yourself. okay, here's a few incidents that i have encountered,

the first one..on the way to taylors in the morning EVERYDAY =.="usually, mei mei and i will be chatting happily in the car since we are all the while accelerating along the highway and easily pass by sunway pyramid in 10minutes time, then suddenly we will feel the slowness around us...then the car comes to a halt for like forever in front of a roundabout where taylors business school's building is just in front of you ( almost)...the traffic is so conjested that we can do nothing but wait wait wait in order to move an inch forward...a pathetic scene that perfectly matches my title of this post.

next, during the 5 minutes time for us to switch our classroom ( classes are conducted in diff classroom every period)can u imagine 700 students are coming out at the same time and they can only squeeze in ONE narrow corridor? everyone is pushing each other, i dont have to move at all cause i will be waved down by them...once i actually stopped a few metres away from my classroom and stared hopelessly at the ppl blocking me...sigh, i hate this =.=

and well, today...a guy that i really love just passed by me without a word nor a glance...we were so close but i just glued myself on the chair and watched him went away...sigh...indescribable feelings cause my heart was empty at that moment...i'm forcing myself to let go..it's the only solution...only way to stop my tears from flooding my room every night...sigh..cant u just talk to me?

motto of the year >> keep moving forward.....

Introduction

finally, i have created a blog...for the past few years, i have been wondering why ppl want to own a blog since i thought it would be a waste of time to write a long piece about ourselves and let the whole world know about it...

well, but i wanted a blog long ago..just to share some interesting pieces with all my friends and not forget to post some recipe of cakes and desserts >.<> owning a bakery was once my dream though...

somebody says that a blog is like a diary, but it's not for me as diary is the most private and confidential 'property' in my life..hehe..have been keeping diary for 6 years and will continue to pour my soul out into it. =)



















* my diaries - the red one is the latest and it has no lock at all!!! i cant believe that i will use it..but nowadays diary..i mean the typical ones with lock and plain layout is rare in the market (in kl at least)..and it's sooooo expensive!!!! so i rather choose to use the current one since it's free of charge =P


* the keys to all my secrets for the past 6 years


















p/s: can somebody tell me how to link frens, creat a chat box etc etc??? i'm totally lost..
anyway,
welcome to my blog!!!!!!